Is it lame?

Is it lame to have two blog entries in one day?

Not to start I think.

Girls asleep. Once again, I love it when they've had a full day and go to sleep easily. The only snafu being that they wanted their American Girl Dolls dressed in their pajamas to sleep with. Of course they didn't tell me this until AFTER the lights were out.

But they are asleep now and there have been worse snafus than this.

I think my new year's resolution...aside from the usual lose weight, eat better, excercise more, etc...is to be a happier mom. I spend too much time stressed about what they aren't doing rather than what they are doing. Why aren't they eating? Why aren't they sleeping? Why aren't the sleeping past 6am? I need to refocus on the fact that they are healthy, intelligent girls. I need to interact with them more.

Dare I say this?

I need to spend more of the time that they are at school doing the things that I do when they are home. No more telling them to wait while I wash the dishes, no more telling them I can't because I have to clean up the front hall.

I had a job for three months and I gave notice because being away from them was driving me insane, the stress of my schedule (or lack of shedule) was making me miss moments I simply was not ready to miss. So I need to look at that as a teaching moment. For me. I want to be there for them. So when I am there I need to BE there. Does that make sense? Or are these empty stomach ramblings?

Chile Verde...here I come.